LIFE

I've finally finished reading "Ayat-ayat Cinta". After numerous attempts of reading in between the lines, translating the Bahasa to normal English (or whatever language was in my head), I still had a little difficulty understanding some of the Indonesian words. very flowery. Still, the last few pages of the book made me cry more than the movie did. The movie definitely did not fully portray the strength of Fahri's Iman, nor Maria's. She moved me the most, at the end of it all. They say fact is stranger than fiction...and surely, I want to meet these people, these people who put Allah and Rasulullah s.a.w above others, but at the same time, respect and live harmoniously with other races and religion.

I have been bumming at home ever since the holidays, except for the Parent-Teacher Dialogue Session last Tuesday and yesterday's outing with the Mum to the salon. haha.

 

Most parents whom I saw were nice and supportive of the teacher's view (in this case, me) but some were agitated with the fact that there will be another change of the form teacher since I'm leaving for NIE. One of them actually told me that her son is sad that I'm leaving just because I told him not to give up in his English. Another boy, who's naturally so baik-looking and ultra polite gave me a hug on the last day of school. It was that hard.  No doubt, I miss those kids already.

Emo, sih!

Lagi emosi, jd mo gmn?

That day my mum said, Pak Ade's in town. and u know what it means when Pak Ade's in town. It means Aceh memories came flooding. Ya Allah! I miss Aceh. I do really. So i thought listening to Muhib sing Seulengeh will make me feel better. Ternyata tidak! Justru sebaliknya, skarang mata berkaca-kaca...

Shasha, plan menjadi tak eh?



Hatiii inii sayuuu... 

Time flies, and Latif's words still echoed in me ears.

"Can you believe it's been 7 years since we were in JC?"

Oh boy it has been 7 years. 7 years since my last effing short skirt days. 7 years of silly crushes and failures.

I met him yesterday. Adam Rd for lunch and then Dempsey Rd for dessert. I love Dempsey Rd. So raunchy ranchy cowboy style. Really, a Taurean couple can last, only in an insipid lifestyle. Looking back, I think our conversations can lead us to deep sleep, especially after lunch, the humdrum of it all. But Latif, thanks for making the effort to meet and catch up. Saya appreciate.

Today is Valentine's/Friendship/Love Day. I was on my way home from school when I passed by Millenia Institute, the formerly known Jurong Institute. Seeing the students with roses,gerberas and what nots took me on a trip down memory lane. One on Valentine's/Friendship/Love Day, the first celebrated in a mixed school.

I remembered how excited we were. Farena and I. we bought stuffs and wrote cards. I bought an $11 keychain and wrote a 3-page letter for that special someone. Farena made a long blue (ironic!) card for her then bf, Hani. 7 years ago today,  we recieved blue (blue was the in colour I guess) roses, cards and chocolates. I gave my gifts to him outside the library. My very first conversation with him, "Hi, this is for you." Honestly, now that I think back, I shouldn't have been so silly. I think he was shocked, and quite taken aback since he was from a boys' school and hadn't received such attention before. GAH! I can't specifically remember how I felt that moment but I was brave enough to give him whatever I had planned to. Wobbly in the knees that I knew! In that letter I left my pager number (pager la still!) and that night, he left a voice message, in his deep husky voice. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRR! I must have called Farena and asked her to listen to it too or sth! There was a reply letter for me and he said in an alpha-message the next day to meet outside school.

Disclaimer: This is for memory's sake and nothing more. :)

To cut the story short, I met him outside school, got the letter and stayed cool until he was out of sight and screamed and shouted and jumped like there was no tomorrow. All the time, with Farena next to me. Haha! It was funny because I was suddenly the centre of attention. I still have that letter. I must have read it over and over again. DJ Wolfy was what he called himself. SILLYness!

I think from then on, we became friends, went for a bowling outing and talked on the phone for hours. But that was that. JI was honeymoon period that dragged on until JC years where I flopped and slipped and wished I had got back on my feet quicker.

That was the story of my first crush. The one I think I will not forget. The crush who eventually dated my other best friend and broke her heart too many times I feel this entry does not do justice to her. But like I said, this is just a chronicle of my really happening life back in that first 3 months of the presently non-existent JI.

Now, here I am typing the memory down knowing that everytime I read it, I will smile because of my juvenile silliness. :)

Now, I don't celebrate Valentine's/Friendship/Love Day. Everyday's supposed to be LOVE day, no? (how cliche yo!) Maybe because yesterday I watched that damned movie, P.S I Love You and maybe because I celebrated yesterday? and maybe because I was walking down town flapping my hands walking away from people selling to us roses and decorated ferreros and saying out loud, "No we don't celebrate!" and then burst into a guffaw. At that precise moment, I actually wanted to sing out loud, "BODOH! minah-minah tudung zaman sekarang ada yang cacat otak BODOH!"

heh.

Memories are just part of our thoughts. I won't know how to live my life if I were Holly should my Gerry die. how to look forward to life when half of my life died not by choice. Why do you think coins are made of metal? because change is hard, he said. Death is a major change of which sometimes, whenever I think of it, will completely change my perspective a 180.

A heart-wrenching movie I'd watch a thousand times. Luckily, I didn't watch today. because love stories shouldn't be so sad! Not on a LOVE day!?


Oh well! I've babbled enough! I dono what happened to Valentine on this day, but I personally think Love should be celebrated everyday.

:)

I've been watching too much sappy tragic love stories, it somehow affected me. >_<
Started out with Jason in Sepet who was so lovable. So sweet and endearing. Aamir Khan in Fanaa and his twin Hollywood brother in Cold Mountain. All died at the end of the stories. Tragic.

I cried buckets when I watched The Notebook in Germany two years back and I cried again when I watched it last night. Both times I watched it alone. Bah! I like it that way so that I can cry without feeling embarassed. Truth be told, I'm a cengeng and so are my close friends like Farena, Fidza and Shasha. Gembeng girls so to say. ToT

I've been a HEEYUUGE fan of Aamir Khan since my adolescent baju kuning skirt turqoise years and I love him above all other Bollywood heroes. I cannot see him cry lest I'll cry too. I melt at the sight of his side profile and i sigh at his flushed face. I must be mad. I guess this is what you call undying love! Haha!

Anyway, I love this song from Fanaa and the lyrics are just poetic. So enjoy and have a great week ahead.

When my hand is in yours, all of paradise is mine.
When my hand is in yours,
all of paradise is mine.
When you're with me, what use have I for the world?
May your love annihilate me.

When my hand is in yours, all of paradise is mine.
When my hand is in yours,
all of paradise is mine.
When you're with me, what use have I for the world?
May your love annihilate me.

When my hand is in yours,
all of paradise is mine.
May my sighs find a shelter in your heart;
may your love annihilate my life.

As close as fragrance is to breath,
as close as melody is to lips,
as close as the twists and turns of thought,
as close as arms entwined,

as close to me as my dreams,
stay that close to me, my life's companion.
When you're with me, what use have I for the world?
May your love annihilate me.
When my hand is in yours,
all of paradise is mine.
Let me cry today; let my eyes swell.
Take me in your arms and let me drench you with my tears.
The river imprisoned in my breast will break free,
and the pain is so great, it will wash down to your feet.

As close as my secrets are to my heart,
as close as raindrops are to the clouds,
as close as the moon is to the night,
as close as kohl is to the eyes,
as close as the waves are to the sea,
stay that close to me, my life's companion.

When you're with me, what use have I for the world?
May your love annihilate me.
When my hand is in yours,
all of paradise is mine.

My breath was incomplete;
my heartbeat was incomplete;
I was incomplete.
But now the moon is full in the sky,
and we are made whole.

So Full Circle Reunited yesterday at my place under the theme, Arabian Night. Thanks those who were all dressed up for the occasion! Being a host is NOT easy! especially when you aspire to be that like Martha Stewart or Nik Manojlavic. bah! tiring but fulfilling! Here are some pics, the rest, you can view at Diana's or at my multiply. Thank you!

Yes, thanks to Farena, I watched the movie online, jiplak but best, f.o.c. It was just as I imagined when I read The Kite Runner, only I didn't think Afghan kids can be so handsomest! Amir was gorgeous, but Hassan I still love, Hazara or not. =)

"The blast echoes through the street of my father’s house.  Hassan slumps to the asphalt, his life of unrequited loyalty drifting from him like the windblown kites he used to chase."

I can very much relate to stories as such. One of loyalty. Since the very beginning, I had admired Hassan's dedication to Amir, just like how I wished I can emulate the devotion of Saidina Abu Bakar r.a to the Prophet, to be the perfect best friend...

I'm into reading lately and I've never quite read so many books in a month. Still, I hope to make it a good habit. If you ask me, for January, I'd recommend My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. A page turner, definitely.  Enjoy the CNY hols all! I hope I will!

Maz is talking about joining amazing race asia 3 and i'm itching to join her. only ting is, it's so weird a combo! haha! i cannot freaking imagine! but amazing race has been my all time favourite show. ever! and maz, take it this way, if i'm ur partner kan, i've quite an exposure to the europe continent and i can speak a lil of spanish (hola!), a lil of german (hello!) and a lil bit of french (bonjour!). and if they go around asia, i speak fluent indo (selamat datang!), beginner's korean (anyong!) and a lil bit of hindi (namaste!). Heh.

Aargh! This whole thing reminds me of my attempt to join TARA2 with Cat last year. Oh! the kecohness of it all! It was truly last minute and we did the audition video in the midst of fyp, tests and what nots. We didn't get in of course, duh! because maybe the package didn't even reach them on time!?!? HAHA! Sweet memory altogether. and yeap i do these crazy things sometimes.

I watched 27 dreses! and I love the show! although i didn't fancy Catherine Heigl's character in Grey's. *like what has it got to do with 27 dreses!?!* hehe. And who else could be the leading man but James Marsden. Cyclops, my hero! Loved the part when they sang out loud, ridiculously not in tune. I teared when she gave the speech to Kevin cuz it was too sweet. One more dvd to get into the collection.

50 first dates
Enchanted
Alvin and the Chipmunks
Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium
27 Dresses

Up next? Kite Runner! and P.S I love you. Sweeny Todd too maybe? no, perhaps Kungfu Panda? but I haven't caught Dan in real life, Dang!

It's all we do. It's the only thing we do. We watch movies because we don't like to go events or museums or parks or concerts or gigs. So we watch movies.

and Cloverfield was good la Maz! I thought it was different and artistic. i liked it mah. tak masuk akal but good, to me. :)

I can't wait for next week because I'm hosting! it's like being martha stewart yo! and it'll be a good practice. :) and I cannot wait to see you people!





I have something else to say but i forgot. i always do that. bah.

Bedah's site makes me go all melodramatic just because of that song. I can feel my heart beam! Bedtz, you should try running in the rain and get drenched because it is pure fun! because I had done it and I cannot wait for it to pour again! and i mean downpour! i love blessings in manyfolds that's why. HAHA!

Fidza is right, I look for a guy I can see a future with, one I can depend on. because I'm clingy like that. who cares. who bloody cares. But i'm looking no more.

At odd times I find us bickering or even hurling abusive smses at each other (okay maybe just me, i'm mean like that) but most times, at the end of the day, i see him, a smile plastered on his face and everything just feels fine. Don't get me wrong. There isn't a major problem whatsoever tat we are bickering. It's just me being difficult. I still am. because i test his patience that seems limitless. Traits of the Taurean perhaps? Ask Fidza the Zodiac guru.

As he walked me home today, the wind was blowing cool and suddenly a man on his bicycle rode past us and i read "sunray" at the back of his t-shirt.

I just believe in omens. This one is good, i know! :)


This post if awfully tunggang-terbalik. but who cares. who bloody cares.

I told Farena, "It's alllllll I've always wanted to do" and her immediate answer was "BLUFF!"
I've laid my cards but it's no bluff game.
Maktub!?!?

Maybe, I'll  just have to listen to what my heart has to say.

Appointment briefing, Thursday.

Question is, to go or not to go

(-.-I)

Fidza, when will u turn LJ-fied? because most of us are here lehh...like Jane, fluffycows and wytelily and *ohmygod what's e screen nick for eli* hiheelsneakers?!

I just freaking discovered (actually just Maz n Ratna) u all are on lj and just added u into my friends' list. So please, welcome me. hehe. padahal padahal. and eh! makan steamboat tak ajak keper?!?! haha. I'm still free from work commitments lor...*hint hint*

anyways, i also plan to organize a crescentian reunion of i donno when. heh. and yes, at a hotel up there please. or a trip, babes! let's go for a trip!? Bintan ke? Bkk ke? I'm dying to go on a friends aje trip. Can you imagine. In my whole entire living life of an almost 25 year old, I've never gone on an overseas trip with kawan2 aje. macam pathetic. blah. to think i've covered quite a number of territories. tsk tsk.

OK lah! Jangan kahwin kahwin dulu! We jalan-calan cari Awin. like what on earth happened to Awin???

HAHA!

C ya later alligatoresses!